Well I hit my six month mark this week. It some ways it seems it flew by, but then I think back to the many nights and days missing my wife and kids and know that it has been a long six months. I stopped to think about the experience thus far. I can sum it up in a few phrases but that makes for a short blog post, so I'll try to outline more.
At first time dragged and my heart ached. Days were filled with nothing and it seemed this deployment thing would never end. I tried to find things to do, so I went to the gym, read books and played games. These activities distracted me, but did nothing to ease the longing for home.
As time wore on, I turned to the Lord. He blessed me without holding anything back. He gave me strength, hope and happiness. Even though I was far from my family I could feel close to them. He helped me to express my love to Amber through our daily emails and phone calls. He blessed us with a deeper love.
I know that "abscense makes the heart grow fonder" but I think it only works if we are trying to make it grow stronger. Amber and I feel one of the blessings of me being deployed is a greater, deeper love for each other. We worked at making our heart fonder! We were forced to focus on it and to express it in words and talk through things. Our communication has improved. Our teamwork has improved as we tried to make decisions together though separated by thousands of miles. I know the Lord blessed us though this whole time.
Now the ache is not as bad, but hasw been replaced with joy and a heart thumping pitter patter overcomes my heart. I still miss Amber and the boys but the feeling is not as desparate. I feel joy knowing we are an eternal family and that when we are reunited it will be glorious! I am glad that through this experience we once dreaded we have found blessings and a have turned to the Lord for His healing strength and power.
I love the Lord! He is my Father in Heaven and has blessed me with an amazing wife and kids!!!!
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